let’s talk about meditation. it’s not sexy. it’s sitting. eyes closed. no cool handstands, no dope beats, just sitting with your damn self. this is a practice that i often avoid. as in, like, everyday actively avoid it. i hate sitting quietly with my own thoughts because inevitably i stress myself out thinking of all the things i need to do or should be doing or am not doing, or whatever. it’s not calming, it’s stress inducing. i do realize the more i cultivate a meditation practice, the easier it will become to sit with myself, to own my thoughts. i do believe that many people confuse meditation with stopping the fluctuations of your mind. i really don’t think that is the intent of it. i think the intent is to sit still, be quiet, hear your thoughts, not let them get out of control, and become comfortable in that space. at least to me, that is my goal with meditation. over the past few years i have participated in challenges left and right—self imposed ones like rowing 100,000m or group ones i follow on instagram for instance, hand standing every day and taking snapshots of it. these aren’t even challenges for me, so i’m not sure why i do them. these are things i like to do and would do regardless of whether someone slapped the label “challenge” on them or not. what i need is a REAL challenge. i’d rather do a pull-up challenge until my hands bleed than sit for 20 minutes in meditation. so what do i really need to do? i need to SIT STILL. i’m going to participate in a self imposed challenge of meditation for 30 days (30 consecutive days, that is—aka if i fuck up and skip a day i have to start over!). My plan is to start with 3-5 minutes and by the end of the month build it up. i don’t need to build up to sitting and sitting for hours, but maybe ten minutes. if anyone else would like to join my challenge i will start a hashtag on instagram… please follow and join! trust me, no one hates sitting still and quietly more than myself. let’s do this and see what happens!!